al-fatihah buat Allahyarham Mat Tahir (ayahnda Yusyanti...)

From Allah we belongs and to Allah we return....

Yanti is part of our family members in BOTs...the sadness felt, wif hearties condolence, hoping that yanti will patiently accept the faith.

Suffering from cancer colon, knewing last month, but Allah love him more.....

Passed away 18th December 2006 in the afternoon...

Al-fatihah...

HaRi2 yang SeRaBuT...oh DeAR

have u ever feel unstable, insecure, frustrated within U?

Oh dear!! it happened!!!just lately i'm confuse myself!!! naper jadik camnih yek....u just can't think or focus of what u' r planning or doing...maybe i'm too tense???oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear......

i feel like shouting, i feel like screaming...i feel like eating people, and there's time when i feel so lonely and sad, like crying, but i just can't hold the feeling no more...hope by writing up this, i feel much easy...lina2x...definitely the inner truth is that i'm been checking whether i am ready enuf for a new leaf. Checking is another problem...the best term to replace is, Lina being extremely anxious.....

P/S : thank god world cup end without the fame of my fav. team...Croatia...or the Asian teams hehehehhehehe...

WORLD cup FeVeR

hi dude,

i'm back...after season of hybernation...thing happens so fast...some thoughts & records...(aper ingat arkib ker??)

30 April 2006 : congrates to atan (nama manja sepupu aku) and salima for the engagement day at alor gajah..The picture captured yet to insert later yeah...my cd been kept by my friend, rique (rique?? ko nak buat pekasam ker cd aku tuh??aku nak balik!!)

2 days after the family gathering (lepas wan tunang), i can't recall the actual date, our dear Ayah Chik been attacked by 'Angin Ahmar'. We were not told bout the incident until a week after....rushing to Kuala Lipis, we were released to see him recovering..thanks to person who safe my uncle's life with first aid, should us share the techniques to save more lifes..
Moral of the story : Keep a healthy life by regular exercise at 3 times a week and consume healthy food. Have rest and enough bedtime sleep ;) i dun meant ur daylight sleep..

Returned form kuala lipis (ct? r u sure Dato' K not ur calon ker? he rish ma!!! *rich like rishi kapoor*) my niece warded at puteri specialist, she's suspected to have lung's infection...2 days then she discharged..lega (kalau tak mama & papa berkampung kat sepital)

7th June - new bABY BOY born (nisrina nabihah lil brother)- my nephew, Mohammad Hamizan bin Khairul Ariffin at 4.35pm (rite after azan asar) at 3.3kg, 38cm head size, 52 cm length

10th june, kenduri arwah atuk for 100 days...(Ya Allah, tempatkan roh atuk dalam golongan roh2 orang beriman, bertaqwa & beramal soleh) temukan aku dengan atuk di akhirat nanti.. Amin.

9th June to 9th July OLE OLE WORLD CUP....what ur dream TEAM? of course not ENGLAND...vote for CROATIA..but the loss d game already...go ARGENTINA GO!!

Coming event...
GJC (Golden Jubilee Ceremony for 50th anniversary *my old school STF * will be held on 3 days run...30th June - 2nd July, 2006, inviting outsiders to come and enjoy the mini carnival and events take place on that particluar days..C U THERE!!! will be incharged in car parade...kereta mak aku jadik korbannyer...;)

Ninda tersayang kembali ke Rahmatullah (2 Mac 2006, 2 Safar 1427M)

Hari ini genaplah hari ke – 8 atuk pergi meninggalkan kami semua. Masih terbayang2, peristiwa pada hari Khamis yang lepas (2 Mac, 2006 bersamaan 2 Safar 1427M, jam 12.30 tengahari, atuk menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya dalam perjalanan ke hospital)

Cerita yang kak lina nak sampaikan buat tatapan, ingatan dan kenangan anak2, cucu dan cicit atuk Aisah binti Endut...hadiahkanlah al-fatihah dan bacaan al-quran buatnya, pohon keampunan dan doakan rohnya ditempatkan di kalangan roh2 orang beriman dan bertakwa..AMIN..
"Terputus si mati dari amalan dunia melainkan oleh 3 perkara; ilmu yang bermanfaat, doa anak-anak soleh dan solehah serta amal-jariah" wallahuwalam...

Tak pernah kami menyangka, sakit atuk kali ini, tanda akhir untuk dia kembali kepada Allah. Pagi sebelum kembalinya, atuk menahan kak lina dari pergi bekerja, (kalaulah kak lina tahu, awal2 lagi ambik cuti dan panggil anak cucu yang lain, menemani atuk, maafkanlah kak lina, kami semua tak perasan!!) Atuk ada mengerang sebelah malam sebelumnya, kak lina tak berapa nak hiraukan sangat, sebab atuk sakitnya memang begitu selalunya, lepas dah disapu minyak panas, senyaplah seketika..(tapi kali ni, kak lina terkilan sangat2 tak dapat belai atuk malam tuh, fikir esoknya kerja banyak, nak tido awal..) Tapi atuk sempat jamah rojak dan popia basah yang dibeli abang ayul & kak ros dari pasar malam. Makan malam atuk, (nasi, lauk sayur dan ikan singgang) seperti biasa, dicedok, tapi atuk macam biasa, akan suap sendiri makanannya, cuma penglihatan atuk makin kabur, sempat atuk bisik pada kak lina" Atuk memang dah tak nampak langsung"...kak lina cuma diamkan sahaja. Sebelum tidur, nisrina akan angkat bantal kecik atuk masuk bilik, tapi kali ni terantuk kat dinding, beria2 dia menangis.

Pukul 9. 00 pagi, kak lina dah sampai ke opis, Along telefon, risau tengok atuk yang nampak lain, tapi anak2 lain dah diberitahu berkenaan keadaan atuk. Sempat kak lina masak bubur, tu lah sarapan atuk yang sempat dijamah, tapi dimuntah semula.

Jam 10.00 pagi, Along telefon lagi, kali ni atuk sedang tidur. Kak lina rasa lega.

Jam 10.30 pagi, Along telefon semula, katanya baliklah lina. Risau tengok atuk. Atuk diam bila beritahu kak lina akan balik bawa atuk ke klinik. Hati Kak lina rasa tak sedap, sepanjang perjalanan balik rasa nak marah pemandu yang memecut macam siput.

Sampai di rumah, jam 11.00 pagi...Atuk Atuk buang air, jadi kak lina dan along rasa baik dibersihkan. Mulanya atuk tak mahu ke bilik air, kami papah atuk, dibersihkan seperti biasa...Cuma dalam masa seminit, atuk menahan kesakitan, terlampau lemah tubuhnya, putih bibir atuk.

bersambung....

Terasa sangat kehilangan atuk, terlampau RINDU tuhan saja yang tahu. Air mata mengiringi RINDU kak lina buat atuk, 29 tahun bersama. Nisrina, si cicit kecil pun sama tempiasnya, diusap2 dan ditepuk2 tilam atuk. Tercari-cari bila disebut moyang kepadanya.

Kenangan yang terlalu banyak untuk dicerita tapi tersemat abadi di ingatan. Terbayang-bayang atuk dengan telekung, duduk di atas kerusi di birai katil, menunggu masuk waktu isya' selepas selesai maghrib, pasti solat2 sebelumnya diqada'. Alhamdulillah, atuk cuba tak pernah tinggal solat walau dalam keuzuran. Tabahnya atuk!

Berkali-kali atuk pesan, pindahlah rumah, nak tinggal bersama seperti sebelumnya di rumah flat kami berteduh. Berusaha kami cari rumah setingkat, berkat atuk, cepat juga urusan pembelian. Tertunai hajat atuk walau hanya bertahan 5 bulan. Sempat juga atuk tengok kak lina bertunang, tahu cucunya ada pasangan yang baik, buat peneman hari-hari mendatang. Walau terlampau cepat atuk pergi, tak sempat untuk menabur budi dan bakti. Rasanya macam MIMPI, bukan mimpi ngeri mahupun manis..tapi Bagai Garuda menyambar, Lenyap sekelip mata. Ya, Allah! Redhakan hatiku atas pemergian atuk. Kerana Tuhan lebih menyayangi atuk dari kami. Kini hanya doa dan bacaan Al-Quran buat atuk. Tanda kasih sayang kami...AMPUNKAN DOSA atuk, semoga rohnya dicucuri RAHMAT..AMIN.

6th February 2006

Emm....my whole weekend were fully utilised ;) Spent on the road most..Saturday 4th February, my cousin aizat persuaded for late outing after zuhur, (bleh yer kak lina...) takperlah budak2...he must ave few unsettled agenda wif bengkel guys, he loiter day by day....ahaks...so back to the trip to kl..i wonder why i'm being sleepy, wif full stomach, loaded wif cadbury, snikkers, smarties, ..etc. i shud dare not denied...we reached usj at 7pm..wif heavy pouring and thunders, (the curse followed my mum lah tuh)..kecoh berceriter, i've forget to tell him i've safely arrived.....ahaks..cam marah jer dier...he reached usj at 9.30..having dinner together, and moved to fuzah's place for logistics (my stuff shipped in several months ago..baru sempat nak mengambik) meet eti (my lil sister) ; standby kat bangi..ahaks once again miscommunication lagik...only 10.40pm we've reached fuzah house..kat sungai ramal dalam..ehem...nice house lah...

*got my squash racket...best nyer...tapi dunno where the courts are...gonna survey the location..nantilah...dah lama tak der indoor heavy xtvt...

time passing fast...i have to go...meet u wif more story d mory...emmmm..teringin nak makan indulgence cake kat secret recipe...

Januari..Februari....

January ended...February steps in...

28th January 2006, my border line of 20s...tak percaya??...as i told my friend....this year is my finale 20s programme...reaching 30s plak next year...thanks to all who sent me ur wishes...for long life & prosperities..what i need is a dosage of maturity & prosperities...

Hari nih dah hari kedua, bulan 2 2006...what i've done so far? went to kursus kawin wif my fiancee and my good friend azlina & nihra....part of preparation into family commitment..;) dah ready ker?

One BIG EPi FAMiLY...

Dalam Kesamaran..GeLaP GuLiTa....(Saper photographer tak reti fokus..tangan pengkar kot??) Ayah Chik SeFAmiLY di Pagi Raya TaHuN ni sakan di JAY Bee.....

P/S : AyahChik..Tukar jer ler video Cam..